one of those days

eh.

everything today is just like…eh. nothing much is goin on and thas what is driving me crazy. i’ve been trying to fill out my fafsa but i keep running into problems with getting my mom’s pin. its so frustrating because you have to wait three days everytime to see what happens. now the deadline has passed and i dont know what to do except for waiting for that stupid pin number.

so frustrating. its like theyre just messing with me.

i dont have money for lunch either. i want some cup o noodles. yumm…

i lifted some weights today. holy cow do my arms hurt. i did alot of work. i can feel my arm while i’m typing. its weird. i think lifting made me a helluva lot hungrier.

i’m ahead of like the entire class in BCIS right now. i havent had any work for three day in here cuz i did everything in one day. everyone thought i was such a dork for it but hey i have three days of nothing but me time. and its funny to see everyone struggling and asking me for the work. jajaja! losers.

i have to finish filling out an application for a scholarship. the deadline is today. but i cant fill it out anymore becuase it requires information about my fafsa. i havent been able to do the stupid thing. grrrr…now i’m missing out on scholarships all becuase my mom didnt listen to me all those times since november that i’ve been telling her to do her taxes and help me with fafsa in f*ckin JANUARY. but no. i even took her to a fafsa workshop so that she could learn something and help me. but nope. after the workshop she just told me that i could do it all on my own. she just likes to procratinate.

how the hell am i going to pay for college?! i’m kinda scared.

anyways. i moved my desk into sherman’s apt yesturday. i feels weird seeing my things there. i know i’m moving out but its just strange cuz i wont be with family with danny or my mom. all by myself. with sherman of course but still its a strange feeling. like i’m growing up y’kno?

i want to play final fantasy today. i havent played since sunday and i’m so ready to continue that story. its awesome. i love ff.

i’ve been weary today. its one of those days. nothing really going on. i’ve been thinking about sherman too. i feel bad and even guilty because he isnt going to be able to do anything for his birthday on saturday. he’s really down about it and i feel guilty because i cant do anything and i want to. i wish i had a job right now. it seems like nothing that i could do will make him happy that day. it sux to know this. well i guess i’ll find a way. something special…

scholarship searches…*sigh*…i wish i could just use the one i got for whitworth. they have me a $7000 yearly scholarship but i cant go to that school but if i could use that money for UTEP i’d have the entire semester paid for. sheesh. i wish i wish wish.

how the hell do you turn stick keys off?!

grrrr….i’m so hungry.