I can’t

Happy Easter.  This is my favorite holiday.  I love spring, I love pastel colors, more importantly I love that Christ died for me.

I am going to my friend’s aunt’s house today.  She says they have a big Easter get together.  I have never been invited to parties, out with friends, and it has always made me sad.  Everyone kept saying "You can’t run away from your problems (to Ohio) they will follow you" However, my problem was I didn’t have any friends left.  Here I have met a whole crew of friends and I consider them real friends.  I mean, how often do you get to put a store together with people.  LOL.

I can’t wait to go back to work.  I miss it.  I am a little sad today.  I really wish my best friend (Darrel) was here to talk to.  I don’t feel good.  I think I might be getting Pneumonia from everything.  I don’t want to run to the hospital either.  I want to give this doctor the benefit of the doubt, but something does not sit right with me.  I spoke highly of him until that morning, actually the night before.  I think I made a mistake, but there is no going back.  If I was in Texas I would go to the hospital.  I am familiar with them, but here, I don’t know anything.  

Anyway, I am going to my friend’s house tomorrow and afterwards I will make my decision on what to do.  I still have a fever, but I am taking advil and aleve at the same time.  I obviously don’t have any pain medicine or medicine for infection, because my doctor did not write me a proper script.  I want to cry.  I am nausiated still, and in pain.  

I didn’t come here for any specific reason, other than I can’t sleep so I decided to write.  I just don’t really have anything to say.

I played cards with the girls tonight, well… until 2am, but we didn’t start until around 1am.  It is fun. 

Goodnight.  Thank you for all your notes.