Just a day

I haven’t been able to work this week, because my doctor put on my "note for work" off all week.  Even though I wanted to go in they would not allow me to go in.  I am kind of glad, because I ended up still not feeling well today, and kind of in a funk.  The girls went to spend the night with a friend at about 5pm today.  I have been alone, and it is a lot quiet, and I just really want to cry for no reason.  

I got my Ohio license today.  They took my Texas license away.  It feels really weird, like I’m no longer a Texan.  I begged the guy to at least let me keep the photo, but he refused, and shredded it.  I don’t know why it would have been a problem to hand me the photo.  Then he was flirting with me, telling me how young I looked and how single he was, but he still aged.  He didn’t have a chance with me though, because he shredded my photo.  LOL. 

I took the girls to eat at Wendy’s, because I didn’t want Alexandra to get a headache or sick.  It was super good. 

After the girls left I went to Meijer for about 20 minutes, got some vegetables, toilet paper, conditioner, and a few other things needed.  I ended up spending $50.  When I got home there was a note on my door saying they were going to shut my water off tomorrow.  It is $127.  I never got a notice, didn’t even know I owed anything, and now I have no money, but only tomorrow to pay.  I am not certain what I am going to do.  I don’t want to ask anyone for the money.  I wish they would wait until next Friday, but there is no such luck.  I’m screwed.  How can I mess so much stuff up.  If I hadn’t gone to the doctor twice I would have that $85.  Now I have to use all my flex to pay for these appointments tomorrow and Friday.  It makes me ill.  I wish just for once I had a little in savings.  

You know what I really want….

I want to talk to Darrel.  I miss him so much.  I never thought it would be possible to miss him so much, but I do.  I want him here, and it hurts knowing that it has almost been a year.  It is just now really hitting me that he is never going to be on the other end of the phone, he is never going to be able to give me advice or help me out again.  I miss him. 

***Mom just lent me the money to pay the water bill.***