My home
We are still in the same home. We did not get automatically approved for the apartment, and we can’t find another apartment we want as badly as we want that apartment. It is an end apartment, right next to a ravine and a park. It is small, but cozy. I like that it is all one floor. Their are no stairs to the rooms, or down to a basement. What you see when you walk in is what you get. I love the kitchen, the counters are all new with plenty of space, and the sinks have a cool inside to them. I can’t really explain. Well, I have kind of decided that if we don’t get approved we will just stay put until we can get approved. The things holding me from approval are not a big deal. I have three utilities on my credit. Two of them are sprint, and one is Verizon. You cannot have more than two. So, when I get my income tax I will pay both sprints. I refuse to pay Verizon. I should not have got charged the fees. I had unlimited texting, they charged me for all our texts amounting in 1,800 in fees, and I told them to take me to court when they told me they would only fix it going forward. I have contested it on my credit, but they refuse to drop it. So be it! I am not paying. Because my credit score is low they said I would have a large deposit. In large they mean $2000 or something. Well… they said I could have first month free at the apartment, so $2000 is first and last month rent really, and I can do that. If they actually want me to pay first months rent too that will be near $3000 and I won’t get that until income tax. However, I have already filed my taxes and should have the money by the 21st of February. I am hoping to be in the apartment by the 9th of February.
Here is the deal. I haven’t been *close* with Christ lately. I pray, but not real sincere lasting prayers. I pray to thank God for my food, and for the great conversation I have had with someone the last couple of days, and for the weather. What I didn’t pray was that God would make sure that no one got hurt if I moved. That the guy I am renting from now would be able to support his family in the next year. I know he has trouble renting this house. I didn’t pray that it would be in the best interest of everyone and that I only wanted to move if it was his will. I was selfish. I saw it. I liked it, and I wanted it. I still want it, but now I know how to pray.
This house is not so bad. It is one of the largest houses I believe I have ever lived in. There are neighbors all around us. I don’t like the elementary school. I don’t like that my son has to walk almost a mile alone an hour after the girls go to school. I am allowing my mother to pick Corban up and put him back in the Leonard school district. He needs to be there. I will miss him so much. He is my sunshine everyday. He is funny, cute, musical, and everyone is his friend. I will miss his smile, and funny comments. I will miss him, but I know he will be safe.
I need to find a church here where I can hear and absorb the message. I do not have the will power to learn all that I need to know on my own, but I know I should. I just have not been motivated. I will get motivated though. I have never missed so much church in my life. I remember growing up I thought I was going to die if I missed a day of church.
I should tell you all that I started work at Cabela’s here on Sunday. I really like it. I like that I get to be a part of the opening team. That I get to help build the shelves, put things together, and just all around be a part of Ohio.
I will update you on whether I stay where I am, or whether I get the apartment. I couldn’t wait though so I have my TV, Internet, and phone being hooked up on Saturday. I am excited to finally have TV.
Anyway, that is all I have for now.