Fuck you and you and you

 I
AM
IN
THE
WORST
FUCKING
MOOD
EVER.
I am so fed up with it all.
My mother can’t look me in the face.
I just want a friend.
A fucking friend.
Not a self absorbed taking needing asshole.
Cause I want to be the needy asshole right now.
Ah ha ha ha ha.
Isn’t life fucking funny?
Isn’t life fucking grand?
The ones who’ve reached out to me are the ones that’ve run the furthest away.
And here I am.
A self sufficient pit of self loathing again.
I am just getting my period.
My hormones are out of wack.
Usually these things don’t bother me.
I
am
going
to
drink
til
my
liver
bleeds
tonight.
Because I’m surrounded by cowards.
And perhaps I’m realizing I’m the biggest coward of all.
Sure I can seem confident.
But I’m pretty sure the cracks are showing.
The skin is breaking apart across my chest.
Let’s all be fucking happy.
I’m so fucking happy.
I love being happy.
I’m the happiest bullshit around.