The Aftermath

Yesterday was my 19th birthday. I didnt do anything special. I went to work then went to the gym for a bit and my family came over for some cake and to just hang out. It was decent. But you know my mom just had to ruin everything. She was bitching the entire time that everyone was complaining about the heat. Well…it was hot outside…what do you expect? We were all uncomfortable and sweating and stuff. Then you know I’m playing waitress running back and forth in and out of the house fetching drinks and getting food and that kind of stuff and as I walk in at one point she was on the phone saying something like "This girl is impossible even her birthday is inconvenient:" Oh I’m sorry that I’m so impossible even though all I’m doing is helping you step everything up and serving people while you sit in the kitchen talking on the phone. Oh and yes I am so incredibly sorry that I chose for my birthday to be in the middle of one of the hottest months. Next time I’ll remember to make it for like September or something when its cooler and we can comfortably be outside. That really hurt. Like I feel like I’m nothing but a bother to her and she just never happy with me. Anything about me whether its something I choose or don’t choose apparently. She was even complaining about my hair saying that like it can’t ever hold a style. You know its just a waste of her precious money to get it done because it loses the style quickly. Well…again…next time I’ll choose a better texture than straight and thick. Absolutely nothing is ever good enough. So when everyone left and I was cleaning up (alone cuz both my parents were showing my aunt the yard as if she hasn’t see it before) I was washing the trays and dishes and just crying cuz I was just so upset. So yet another birthday ruined because she had to open her mouth.

The biggest thing though was that she forgot candles. And I would be like ok no big deal. But my cousin was like "Why aren’t there candles." And My mom answered with a "She didn’t want any." I got so mad. The ting I look forward to most is blowing out my candles and making my wish. I know…it’s stupid but…theres just something about it that makes me so incredibly happy…maybe its because I get to be a kid again or maybe its because theres a possibility that my wish will come true…but that is the one thing I really look forward to. And to have her first of all cover her ass by lying saying I didn’t want it and second of all to just take away something that is so important and meaningful to me…it just hurts…and reminds me of how little she knows about me. *sigh* let me stop before I start crying again.

It was just really sucky.

I got $250 which covered all the money I spent this weekend (hair (I paid for half and my mom paid for the other half), nails, dinner, movie, gym, and the third 50 Shades of Grey book) and I also bought a set of wireless headphones. 

Not much else has gone on here. I spent Saturday hanging out with my two best friends. Sunday I didn’t do anything. It’s been pretty boring. I can’t wait to move back in (hopefully) a month from yesterday. Hopefully I’m moving back in on the 17th of August. I really really hope I do! The sooner the better!.I can’t wait to get away from my dragon beast of a mother. My dad was sympathetic to me though. He gave me a huge hug before I went to bed last night. I almost started crying.

 *Sandra*