Been a while :)

So life’s getting gradually better. Heres an update on different areas of my life

School:

My school has the plague! Everyone is getting is stomach virus that makes them puke and stuff. Yea not fun thankfully I did not get it and now I’m home for Easter so yea I’m good. Classes are going ok I guess…I’m a little worried about failing my chemistry class however. I’ve to a tutor and he didn’t help much so I’m going to try to go to another tomorrow before my chem lab. Hopefully I can pull my grade up cuz as of right now I have a D in the class. My other classes are going well. I need to study more for Bio however because if I screw up another test I’m fucked. Math is going ok I think I have like a B in the class or something. Public speaking is a weird class I’m not sure what I have in it. I love my freshman experience class. Its fun and interesting…so far its the only class I haven’t skipped. I’m getting more and more involved in stuff on campus which is always a good thing. I recently joined Habitat for Humanity which is a pretty awesome club..I was in a simliar club in high school so this was pretty awesome to continue it in college. hmm I can’t think of much else…oh!

I got the Peer Mentor position that I applied for. Not sure if I mentioned anything about it on here. Its basically a program where upperclassmen mentor freshman and help them through anything. So I get to mentor a freshman! It’s like having a little buddy! lol I’m very excited about this. I’m glad I applied. I really wasn’t going to but I’m really glad I did. Its kind of like Peer Ministry that I did in high school. Its exciting. 🙂 I need a job on campus for next semester though….I need to start making money while in college. I can’t keep depending on my mother for money.

Alex:

I found a card that Alex gave me for our 4 year anniversary. I kept it in my bookbag and carried it around with me as a kind of reminder that he is changing. He actually put some though into the card and put pictures of my favorite cartoon characters on the back of it saying cute and adorable things. So It showed me that he is trying. But, of course, as per usual, he just reverts back to his old self. 

He was changing though. The week I didn’t talk to him he started to realize that he has it pretty good with me. I just didn’t care enough to give him another chance. So yea. I didn’t give him a chance to show me that he has changed. I just like made the decision in my head already that I was leaving him and that was that. What if he did change? Now I’m wondering if this was maybe a mistake…

Well anyway it doesn’t matter. I’m quite content where I’m at now. I mean sure I wish he would talk to me but..with time he will. Eventually. Boy just needs his space. I broke his heart by legit leaving him. he wasn’t expecting that. He though he’d just say "I’m changing" and I’d be like oh ok I’ll stay…he got too comfortable. 

So I threw out the card…and another letter that he wrote me. I’m moving on…but more importantly I’m finally letting go. Of him. Of everything. Theres no point anymore to cling to the past. It partially the reason I’m so upset all the damn time. I constantly relive the past and think what if or why did that have to happen. All that matters is that it did. It happened and I learned and grew from it. Now time to move on and live my life.

Eric:

No real news here. He’s jealous as fuck of Daniel and its completely obvious. I laugh. But, yea we’re just friends. 

Daniel:

As good as ever. We spent last night together because his roommates went home. We had amazing sex and fell asleep. Though at one point he like skipped out and slipped into the wrong hole (that was kind of my fault…i think I thrash around too much lol) but yea it hurt like a bitch. It still kind of hurts but its more of an annoying pain than anything else.

Alex did the same thing once but that time he went all the way in. We were using lube so it was easier for him to get in. I passed out from the pain. Like literally I was in a lot of pain got all hot then BAM! passed the fuck out. Was not pleasent in the slightest.

Anyway, Yea it hurt and I was like OWWWW then he was like "So no more?" and I was like "yea no, not for a little bit." I was not turned on in the slightest. I was in pain and just… no….sex was not on my mind. Then he gave me that look and was like "aww really" and I don’t know how but he got me all excited again. Then we commenced having amazing sex and I totally forgot about the pain and everything. Then we cuddled and fell asleep together. He’s nice to sleep with. Holds me and stuff all night. Except sometimes he’s impossible. He’ll like turn over and leave me like no space. Then he like rolled over on top of me and I was like "Oh hell no" So i pushed him off and got into a cuddling position again. Its ok though cuz I’m pretty bad to sleep with too. I kick and steal covers. So yea. It was so nice to fall asleep naked and wake up naked then he got all hard again and we had another quickie (it wasn’t that quick but whatever). I love how our sex drives match each others. His might actually be a tad higher than mine. Either that or I just care more about whether or not my roommates might come in and stuff like that. 

He’s so good in bed though like omg. I’ll be like orgasming and while go faster while I’m orgasming thus drawing out the orgasm a little longer ad doing it all over again. It feels so amazing. No lie I feel kind of inferior to him. He’s like amazing in bed I’m only like decent. But, hey. 

I give good blow jobs. 

Its kind of bad though how all he has to do is whip it out and I’m on my knees. I love giving blow jobs. lol Oh well who going to complain? What guy doesn’t enjoy blow jobs?

Home:

My mom is still and will always be a dragon lady. My dad is still on me about my weight. I’ve been losing weight. He can’t expect me to me stick thin in a few months. Can’t do that. I like my body though I could be slimmer. I hope I don’t lose my curves though. I’ll cry if  lose my curves. I love my curves they are my best feature…besides my eyes. so yea…

Anyway I’m tired of typing. If you have any questions just ask. Leave a note. I’ll write more later when I’m bored haha..

 

 *Sandra*