I don’t know anymore

He was talking to his ex again…he said he missed her…..

Does he really miss her? Does he maybe want to get bak with her and try and work things out again?

Maybe I’m reading too much into this.

I feel like going to bed and just sulking but instead I’m sitting next to him and one of our friends thinking about things I shouldn’t think about.

I mean so he goes back to his girlfriend…we’re not together…he can do whatever he wants…doesn’t mean I like it but yea…It hurts.

I wonder how he feels towards me now that we’ve been ‘together’ for a while…is it still the same feelings as when we first started? Or am I just some girl he likes to fool around with? Are we just friends with benefits? I don’t like this like unstable ground. I mean I dont want a label of boyfriend/girlfriend but still I just wish I knew where I stood with him. 

I want to ask him how he feels about his ex. But, he’s so like distant when I ask. Kinda feel shut down whenever I bring it up.

I just wish I knew how he felt about everything. It’d make my life easier.

*sigh* well the most I can do is just show him how I feel and hope he feels the same way back.

goodnight OD 

*Sandra*