Changes

I wish I could be like those people that log in religiously with something to say each and everyday. Heck, even once a week would be great. But I have excuses. Too busy. Just plain forget… whatever it may be… I often forget this a great place to jot my thoughts and release some of that inner stewing thats happening far too often.

So many things…
I want to be in love. Sooo badly. I have been a single mom for 5 years and haven’t been in love since my daughters dad. We now have a toxic relationship. We get along most of the time, but theres a ticking time bomb in each conversation. We are good parents, just not good as a couple. We know what works, what eachothers buttons are… ect. But I am just ready for MY TURN. I can go back in this diary and count how many times i’ve said this very same thing in probably each entry. It just plain sucks battling this world alone. And I know I’m not truly alone. I have Jesus… and that in itself should be fulfilling enough… but I think we all ache for someone to wake up with. Someone to nurture us when we are sick. Someone to take road trips with. Someone to geuninley wrap themselves up in your very existance. A girl can dream right?? I’ll keep praying. I have to keep telling myself, that since its been this long… when it does finally happen its going to be magical. Right?? What else do I have to go on?

Abby is doing WONDERFUL. I can’t believe I’m the momma of a 5 year old. She amazes me every single day!! Some of my readers have been reading since she was born. Its crazy how time flies. She’s so smart! Shes in Kindergarten 5 days a week and absolutely loving it!! 🙂 I couldn’t be more proud of her.

I finally… FINALLY moved. After 5 years in a HOLE of an apartment… In august. To a GORGEOUS apartment that I love love love!! To a new town that I love love love!! I will try to take some pictures soon and post them… so everyone can see.

I am still here. And I do check in once in a while…. I love the OD community. And have had a diary here for almost 10 years. In some way, shape or form. Hope your all well and I hope your blessings are fulfilling your lives!! 

🙂