August 31, 2010

Cry

Sometimes you just need someone to reach out to. Someone to hold you while you let it all out. All the tears that gather inside you make you ache for a release of some sort.
Maybe its PMS. Maybe its truly all the feelings I’ve been bottling up, but I can’t help feeling like this tonight.
I texted him asking if we could get together for a few hours tonight. I just really wanted to talk. I broke the number one rule when it comes to dating. And theres no taking it back now. I just wanted to see where we were. And he called, we talked, mostly about him, his week, his work, ect. And it just made this feeling inside me even worse. I feel like I need to get MAD. And I don’t get mad often. But I feel like when I do actually see him, I need to grab his face and tell him to LOOK at me, LISTEN to me, LEARN about ME for once! I need to express myself and actually get MAD. I deserve better than this. And I am trying sooooo hard to just let God guide me. But I can’t help feeling like this. And we just started seeing eachother, I don’t want to waste time for either one of us.
I don’t know, maybe its me and I’m being hasty.
I wish I had regular readers to offer some advice. I’m just reaching out… my best friend is gone till next week, or I’d go knock on her door.
Who knows… maybe its just PMS.

Edit****
So litterally seconds after clicking save on this entry, this song came on tv… wow. A sign??

My.Only.One

September 1, 2010

I wish I had some great advice, but I really don’t. I can say that I know how you feel, though… I’ve felt this way about someone for a long time. Too long. I guess what I would say is take into account that things like this don’t tend to change. And you shouldn’t stay in a relationship that doesn’t uplift you and bring you closer to God, because you deserve that! I hope everything works out 🙂

wingedfish

I hope yo u are talking this over with God. I dated a man once who could turn every conversation into one about him. Even if I had started the convo about me and something I was feeling he was capable of making it about him. It is not unreasonable that you should want some air time too. Don’t be afraid to tell him if it is important to you it should be important to him or he isn’t worth your time.