Red Red Wine

Woofta. A glass of red wine and some turkey for dinner= a LETHAL combination. I could probably go to bed RIGHT now and its only 6:48 in the PM. Man oh man…

I got a turkey as a gift from work for Christmas… nice right? So I cooked it tonight… well starting today about 2 o’clock. And it turned out delicious. Have never cooked a turkey before… was great! But the glass of red wine has kind of made me want to drift off into a deep slumber.

Christmas is OVER. Thank you Lord for dying on the cross so that we could all have life… but when ALL you want is to spend Christmas with someone you love, and they totally RUIN any chance of that… there’s no hope left in your heart for what "could" be. I’ve pretty much given up. It hurts to love someone who doesn’t love you in return… and life is wayy to short to waste any more tears on someone like that. One day they will wake up and realize what could have been, and hopefully for them… its too late! 

I know with every ounce of my being what it is I want. I want a family, to be a mother to a number of children… to have a loving husband who’s caring and considerate. Who won’t set me on the back burner to ensure the things HE wants in life are met before anything else. I want someone self-less. Someone who I am proud to be with. Its just that the hope inside me for this… keeps deminishing.

I have no pictures from Christmas. It was not a happy event in my house. All I wanted was to spend it with loved ones… but it didn’t happen that way.

ANYWAY… I really don’t have anything else to talk about.
Starting school soon. Nervous, scared, worried, all kinds of emotions floating around inside my head. Not to mention this computer is the biggest PILE OF CRAP ever and keeps shutting down on me. So I will be purchasing a new one. I’m contemplating just getting a netbook, but I’m sort of leaning towards getting a smaller laptop… with a bigger hard drive than this one. Mine is ancient. Its only an 80G. So we’ll see what happens.
Hope Christmas was wonderful for all of you!!!