08/01/2013

I know that he wasn’t the one. cause if he was I would miss him . but I don’t. I can tell you I don’t remember the last time I felt so loved and so happy in a long time. He always makes me laugh , he always send to me to bed happy . even if I am mad at him he wont stop till he put me in a better mood . lately I been so happy . the first few months with the ex were rough I remember. but not with zac . yea we have our differences but we sit down and talk about them . and he makes sure I understands , and makes sure I don’t cry

on other notes I’m getting used to not having sex all the time . its kinda weird but I’m ok with it, since it not cause he doesn’t want me he just want something based on feelings and instead of sex. the fact he calls beautiful all the time makes me feel special .

I really like feeling this way … I can see I make him happy he always smiling when I’m around . I like the fact our relationship is not based on lies or snooping or anything . I love the fact if I ask him a question he just proves it to me, I feel calm around him . I don’t feel like he hiding anything, I don’t cry anymore at night . he lets me sit in on his raids . his friends like me, they don’t think I have an annoying voice .

the fact I think zac is really worried he going to lose me makes me see something I never saw in Kyle , like he wants to fight for this, I don’t think Kyle ever felt that way, I don’t think Kyle ever thought about anyone else besides himself cause if he would thought about me , he would have not spend nights at other girls places , he would always come home to his own bed , he wouldn’t have had other girls sleep in his bed, he would have made sure I was happy. zac puts me first, and makes sure I am happy. always.

I AM so happy I met him . I am happy how well we get along . we are 2 different people but very similar in something

zac is evening going to teach me how to play magic :] I am ok with that .

Heck my mom even really likes him . and she hardly even met the guy . I really love my fuzzy bear .

I hope I get to keep my fuzzy bear forever .