Poison

 I am a seductive poison, sweet
against your lips. Upon first sip,
I begin to rot your soul away.
You’ll feel warm inside but
it’s just a disguise for the decay.
You want to tell me no yet
you still can’t turn me away–
it’s not quite an addiction,
it will destroy you just the same.

I know i’m hard to swallow;
but baby, how’s the taste?
 

I’ve been pretty miserable this week. The name for my illness is gastroparesis. It affects diabetics. but i don’t have diabetes. pretty frustrating. I’ve lost 20lbs so far. Not because i’m trying, believe me. I think this week has been worse though because im recently single. and i don’t really know what to do with myself anymore. all my friends are occupied with their significant others and i feel like i have no one.