Rambles

I couldn’t sleep at all last night. I just kept tossing and turning…I hate those kinds of nights. Since I work second shift my sleep pattern has been way off. I end up not being able to get my butt out of bed before 11am and then I can’t get to sleep before midnight. When school starts I’m going to be screwed. I have an 8am class that I’m not looking forward to and I actually have to be awake for it (gotta love stats).

In other news I spent some time hanging out with Alex (an old friend) today and we went for a walk down by the lake. I had a lot on my mind today so the whole time we went walking I was talking his ear off. He has an amazing girlfriend and he seems really happy. Which is awesome but in a way it makes me a little sad. I mean I’m content in my relationship but I seem to be missing that feeling…that connection. I asked him how he felt about love and if two people could ever feel the same about each other-and he said that’s the kind of relationship he has with his girlfriend. So now I feel even worse about my relationship. I know I shouldn’t compare my relationship to other people’s but I have to sort out how I feel and where I think things are going… So people…it is possible for two people to be madly in love with each other. Although finding that person is pretty damn near impossible.