10/20/05

Today was my first real day of work.  I attended two meetings then spent the rest of the day at the service desk learning how that works.  They were also teaching me things I’ll most likely never do. My head hurts.  My sister calls it information overload.  I also learned how to read the reports I need to read. Tomorrow and Monday  I’ll do the service desk and sit in the marketing room on the computer trying to learn what benefits and stuff I’ll be trying to sell to people.  Tuesday, I’ll travel to another city to train with another Advantage Coordinator.  I’m extremely nervous about the whole thing. My mind doesn’t work the way it used to.

When we first moved up here (and before) everyone kept telling us to get state assistance.  We did and I hate it.  Yesterday when I went to this job orientation thing (had to go even though I have a job) I was told that I will be making too much money to keep getting it.  I was very happy.  It’s nice to know that just my job gets us above poverty level.  Just barely above, but above.

Then another thing happened that made me want to cry.  AJ’s school called the hubby and said they had a check and gift card for us.  It was a gift from the whole school.  That was such a terribly nice thing to do, but I don’t like people doing that.  I don’t like feeling like we’re needy. We’re not. Not at the moment anyway.   It’s hard to put into words the way I feel about all the help we have received.  There are just  so many people that really really need it in this world.  Soon, hopefully, our lives will have some sort of normalcy and we won’t have people helping us so much. I know this sounds stupid, but again, I can’t say it right.

Two of the kids stayed home from school today.  I don’t know what I’ll do when the hubby starts working again.  I wish I would have tried to do the sub teaching thing again.

Well I guess that’s about it for now.  Bye.