9/15/05

OK, so we’re going home Saturday morning.  Without having a car, it will be hard to do anything there, but at this point, I really do not care.  We want to go home!!   The hubby checked everything out today and it wasn’t as bad as we heard.  I’m guessing since the electricity came back on the a/c circulated the air and that helped.  He did some cleaning too.  I didn’t expect that.  He was cute.  In a boyish way he said "guess what I did?"  I asked "what did you do?"   He said he laid in our bed and it felt sooooo good.  I’m jealous. This fouton (sp) is like sleeping on the floor and my back has been killing me.

His sister totally pissed me off.  She got on the phone telling me about things in the apartment and what I’ll need to do.  Like I don’t freakin know I have to buy groceries????  What really got me is when she said "I don’t know what THAT WOMAN did, but I hope you still have food stamps".   First of all "that woman" (meaning the sister I’m staying with, has let us live in her museum of a home for a long time and has told us numerous times we can stay as long as we need to.  Another thing my sister doesn’t eat much.  She hasn’t used up the food stamps at all.  Anything I’ve bought, my family ate.  Who is the SIL to say such a thing.  She hasn’t helped us until recently and that was to take th hubby to work.  She doesn’t know a thing about us. Then she said something about if the apartment was bad she wouldn’t take us back there.  Like hell.  My sister was going to drive us home Sunday.  No matter what its like I’d still want to go back to see for myself and deal with things.  Who is she to decide what I do??  I have more to say, but I’ll keep the rest to myself.

I haven’t talked to the hubby yet, but the ex live in sister might not be an ex for a little while. She asked if her and the b/f can stay for a week while they find another place or if they decide to go back to Colorado.  Seems the place they were living has roof damage.  My sofa isn’t in all that great of shape because of them now.  It will probably fall apart after they leave.  Maybe I’ll just buy a bunch of big pillows to throw on the floor if that happens.  I’ll wait until the kids are grown and she won’t be coming back to stay and then buy myself a very nice sofa.

I know I complain a lot, but this is where I can do it without hurting someone’s feelings.  I am thankful for everything that people have done for me and all that I have.

Oh I’ve see first hand what this experience has done to my children.  Well one in particular.  Erin.  All my life I’ve had this facial ticks.  Happens in other parts of my body too, like a nervous thing.  The sister I’m staying with has it also.  My dad had it too, but not to the same extent as us.  Erin has started it just since this evacuation thing happened.  She also wants to eat constantly.  I see myself in her so much.  I hate having to tell her she can’t eat when she’s so adamant she’s hungry, but I can’t let her eat constantly either.  And she doesn’t understand anything about the nervous thing.  I was picked on some about that when I was little.  My mom took me to a shrink one time about it, but never followed through.  My sister has been on Haldol for a few years and hasn’t had it happen since.  I don’t go to the doctor to get anything done about it, but I will take Erin. I don’t know if she can even have Haldol at her age, but I will talk to the doctor about doing something. It’s an awful way to live.  From what I’ve learned, it’s a form of Terets (sp).  Sometimes you do it so much you hurt.  I don’t want that for her and I don’t want her getting humongus because she’s nervous or what ever is going on with her.  This probably makes no sense, but I’m not going back to fix it 🙂

I’m going home!!!!!

Bye.