Back to school

 I’m feeling extra down about going back to school.  I know its going to be a bunch of hard work that’s going to be overwhelming and nearly impossible to keep up with.  And I just don’t want to…I don’t feel like keeping up and working hard.  I just don’t.  

But mostly,  I know that things will ultimately stay the same.  Last year, I had hope that things would change…that I’d be more outgoing and that I’d hang out with people..that I’d be more confident and become more independent.  But I quickly learned that a new location doesn’t do any of those things for you.  You have to change if you want change.  And truthfully, no matter how much I want it, I still have a tremendous fear of it, and I don’t know how to do it.  

So going back to the same old but with added responsibilities, stress, and anxieties.