I thought that was what I wanted, but it wasn’t…

 Tonight I’m feeling like I can’t be emotionally and mentally satisfied.  I’m feeling kind of depressed I think.  I don’t know.  I feel like I want to do some activity, but when I’m done, I realize that didn’t really do anything for me.  Like I assume I’ll feel better when I’m done, but I don’t.  I guess, ultimately, I’m feeling kind of lonely.  I hate to admit it, but I am.  I wish I let people in my life.  I wish I had people to call when I feel like this, but I don’t.  and its my own fault.  Maybe I’ll feel better in the morning.  Probably not