Connections

Astrophysicists use Infrared Light Cameras to pick up the slower moving wavelength of the IR range and they find that there are Particle Clouds throughout our Universe – All of this is to say, there are things our senses aren’t able to perceive; that our eyes cannot see, and remain invisible to us. The Hummingbird can see into the Ultraviolet Light ranges, something our human eyes cannot see. I also understand that most breeds of Dogs are colorblind.

I’m constantly baffled by the idea of synesthesia – people who can sense things with their sensory organs outside the architecture or function of that sensory organ. For me, it is in the mind that I perceive these things – these invisible fields. I can ‘hear’ things that I am not present to hear with my ears and ‘see’ things that I am not able to see. I’ve demonstrated this to people often over the years – having never met these people. I’ve described physical surroundings, attire and appearance, tattoos and scars that aren’t even visible to anyone in photographs… Things that I can see in my mind. But I cannot explain these things as I ‘See’ or ‘Hear’ them. It is not a Psychic Ability – I’m not special, and don’t have ‘Powers.’ And I will never brag of being able to do such things – I’ve demonstrated it enough times to enough people to know that it isn’t imagination and my accuracy can’t be contested.

I believe that it is a connection – my senses picking up subtle details that form a Holographic 3D image in my mind’s eye. I sense vibes from someone; a situation, an environment and I construct a visible image in my mind and I’m able to articulate what it is I am seeing. The TV Show Elemental, where the actor Jonny Lee Miller who portrays Sherlock Holmes has this ‘Intuitive Ability.’ It isn’t ‘Extra-Sensory’ it is a skill that is honed and practiced. But I have to be able to connect with that ‘thing’; person, place or situation, to be able to formulate the image first.

The ‘hearing’ thing is interesting though, because it doesn’t fall into the perceived images that I can construct in my mind… But in a way it is – because I have had to learn and memorize the distinct sounds of everything to be able to identify them… This does not mean I can distinguish a Robbin’s song vs a Cardinal’s… I’m getting better at it, they are both distinctive, but I’m not talking in that sense. I’m saying – I have had to learn how to identify that there are two distinct sounds merging in my peripheral for me to identify.

I have grown up with severe hearing loss and I’ve learned to adapt to hear and understand what it is I am hearing – and I have had to become impeccable in this skill to survive. My hearing loss includes both Tissue/Nerve damage and Mechanical Damage (Cochlear). Likely something I will have to address with an implant at some point of my life – or simply allow myself to go permanently deaf. I’m thinking just going deaf, as a personal note.

Growing up, I’ve had to learn how to adapt. Not easy in a Bilingual Home and Community. After Highschool, I consciously chose to speak exclusively in English, abandoning my family’s cultural language. Everyone can speak English – so fill your boots, was my approach. Having to adapt this skill over nearly 50-years has empowered me with certain traits where I have had to estimate, predict, assume, infer, and perceive the happenings around me and try to keep up with the pace. This is why it is challenging for me to connect with people, because of the cognitive energy I’m exerting just to ‘keep up’ with the events happening around me – particularly those where I’m expected to participate in. To me, everything is too quiet and unclear, garbled, or muffled. I will catch a handful of words being expressed in a conversation and have to figure out the words I couldn’t hear – and keep up with the conversation so that I don’t lose the thread. I have a colleague with the same hearing issues – he’s more advanced in age and has had operations to help correct his hearing loss with minimal results. English for him isn’t his native language and he struggles to keep up with conversations. But I’ve learned that he is the same with his native language too when he is amongst his cultural peers. He cannot keep up with conversations, not the way I do. When we speak about the degree of hearing loss in both ears, we are pretty much at parity. Yet, he hasn’t developed this skill.

I’ve attributed the skill to being an INTJ under the Myers Briggs Personality Test. I know there are a few INTJs on OpenDiary – would be nice to hear from them and see if they have themselves a form of this skill.

Our connections can be observable, and still remain invisible. It isn’t something that is unknowable. It may be challenging for some to accurately describe and explain but it doesn’t invalidate it any less. You can visibly observe a young couple falling in love for the first time – You can observe when two people, or a group of people are about to escalate into a confrontation. There are tells, signs, evidence, language and posturing that is connected with specific acts or actions. Social Scientists have pushed the boundaries of the science of ‘Micro Expressions’ to a socially unhealthy level, designating some of these expression as ‘Micro Aggressions.’ These Micro Expressions are cue that give us insight into our mood, attitude and mental state. We can learn on an intuitive level how to recognize these patterns in the people around us – most usually those people we have intimate relationships with. But once we can identify the cues or tells (as in Card Games) it is easy to ‘Read’ the field. We make the connections.

But there lies yet more subtle energies than those that can be observable. Tapping into these fields are more challenging, yet possible. There is no mysticism to it all – just know-how and experience. Everything is connected and everything that is observable can be measured and invisible can be knowable. We are limited therefore only by the how much or little we want to tap into at any given time.