Everything will change, and then change again

I’ve been trying to adjust.  I’ve been trying to accept that its all done and over, and it won’t ever work and even if you thought it would at this point, I shouldn’t let it because you’re just not enough.  In a lot of ways, and I used to push that fact to the side.

Accepting that a relationship is finally done, that this isn’t just another part of the up and down cycle of us, is so trying.  It’s exhausting and sometimes I can’t breathe when I think about it too long. 

So many things are changing in my life right now.  For the better, but its quite hard.  Somebody said to me the other day "I’m not good, but I’ve been worse", and man, do I agree.