gongshow

.. the word i used most this weekend would have to be gongshow.  i couldn’t even write all the stuff that went on this weekend .. the wedding was just an absolute freakin gongshow.  we used the entire hotel/lakefront property as our personal party lodge.  i have never seen people party so hard before, especially when its supposed to be a somewhat stuffy occasion .. not that i was complaining.  filthy rich kids doing coke at the golfcourse.  shutting the hotel power off .. twice.  belly dancers at the reception, one which i might add i could have upstaged.  just a gongshow man. 

back to today.  i feel fat and i didn’t run again, which is not new.  i had no idea if i worked today so i just didn’t go and turns out my boss didn’t phone so i guess i was home free anyways.  i can’t stand my job.   i want to go to school up in prince george next winter.  UNBC .. that’s northern BC where it gets good’n chilly .. my kinda place.   for a while at least.  i want to do something different.  i just keep sitting at my shitty job, doing nothing, going nowhere.  i don’t mean what other people expect me to be "doing with my life", i mean personally.  i have no freakin goals or much plans anymore, i’m just kind of idling.  AND ITS PISSING ME OFF.  this turned into a rant suddenly.  a scattered one.  and i need to get laid.  i had a bizarre sex dream last night that freaked me out.  the results of watching a freaky ass show and not getting any for quite some time. 

ok, before this entry takes a turn for the wierd.  (too late?)  bedtime?  maybe.  if somebody has any magic tricks to lose half your body weight lemme know.  and for a piece of advice this evening, team america is a shitty movie, but the sex scene will make you pee yourself laughing.  thats about all i got tonight.  later.