About Time!

"you will never beleive what i just did. I was studying for finals then i decided to take a break, i was lookin around on the internet and i saw your online diary thing, i actually sat there and read EVERYTHING that you have written in basically 3yrs…i laughed some…cried some…and thought how good of a writter you actually are. I am the weirdest person i know, i dont know if i am going to start soon or what but i have never felt so many emotions in an hr and a half in my life."

And THAT is what it’s all about. I never lost my best friend. We just took some time off from each other. She never deleted me from her phone either. She wished she could call me too. And she was lonely without ME. Friday night we toasted to "picking up where we left off." I feel about 35 pounds lighter. Hanging out wasn’t weird. Even her boyfriend was okay. (obviously I have to say that because she does read this. – jk jk -)

I moved back to Rockwall so I can go to Collin County and get my GPA back up. It’s all to ultimately get me back to Oklahoma Christian. I miss it. I went to Homecoming chapel a couple months ago and just felt that something so peaceful was awaiting me – I just needed to figure out how to get to it. A couple hesitant calls (to my dad) later I had a plan. The only thing left was to talk to Josh about it. He’s my life in Oklahoma. I have some great friends and a fantastic job, but when it came down to it, he was the reason I was still there. But when I told him I was thinking about it he looked at me and said "Go. I’ll still be here. One semester isn’t that long."

I’m sorry, what? Come again?

We’ve been driving each other insane since then so these 250 miles apart will help give us our space. He was thinking about driving down today, but he didn’t. Makes me sad.

Right now I have to do the following:
-Finish jamming out to "Into the Ocean" by Blue October – it’s been a fabulous muse for this entry
-Move the rest of my stuff up into my room and figure out where it’s all going to go
-Wash my Jeep (it’s already emptied and vacuumed out. I have the pit stains to prove it.)
-Figure out what classes I can take from CCCC and will transfer to OC
-Get enrolled

I won’t even lie. College scares me. I know what it’s about now and I’m doubting myself. I know I’ve got what it takes. But I will need to exude some serious self-control and I wonder if I’ve still got it in me. Yikes.

But for now I have to go let the dog out before she leaves me a puddle to clean up. But it’s perfect timing because the song just ended!

*Much Love*