Yup

Tonight I got what I had been wanting for almost 5 months. And I got it twice. So that makes me happy. I also took my Ambien (prescribed for me by my doctor.) And I know it is working because the letters bounce around the page, Sometimes they capitalize themselves by just doing it. i can’t focus and i know it’s time for bed.

Dana. I am sorry. I want us to move on. I want us to be able to call each other and talk again. Hang out together while I’m down there next week just you and me. We all messed up and I’m trying to be the one that gets it started again.

I’M SORRY FOR EVERYTHING. CALL ME NEXT MONDAY.

I’ll be in Rockwall again because I am having some more extensive procedures that can only be done in Dallas. I really want you to be there to help me through it. Parents rarely understand, the men in our life get most of it. But you and me? We just get each other. Hands down. Always have. I really need you there with me please. I’m scared and I want you to hold my hand and tell me I’m being a pussy about the whole thing…just think about it at least.