Letter I sent him

Tim,
You have told Michelle that you are tired of hearing from me that you are cold hearted…. How am I not suppose to be angry right now. I was by your side with your divorce and your father’s death. Abbie’s teacher is watching her Thursday night for me so I can go see my mom and then Friday my mom is having the actual surgery of the kidney stones. I can’t go up to see my mom Friday or over the weekend because of all this childish bs between you and I. I have tried to talk to you and I have said I am sorry. Are you that stubborn you can’t put this all aside to help me so I can be with my mom next weekend? My sis friends father just passed away last night due to cancer and the services are next Saturday at 2pm so I will probably have to watch all the kids for a while next Saturday. 
If you can’t put this childish fight behind us to help me out then I guess our friendship wasn’t worth the time that WE both put into over the last 1 ½. 
Yes tim I know I did you wrong, I know what I said was wrong and I have said I am sorry a dozen times to you. You ended our friendship over something very childish and it shouldn’t have been said. What happened to we will always be friends Lisa. I never thought that our friendship would end. I am sorry I always threw at you about ending our friendship and always canceling our plans when we made them. I was wrong on all that I did and for that I am sorry. I am also sorry for bring up the past and throwing in your face everything I did for you and your kids. I did it because I wanted to.
I really need your help next weekend and if you can’t and don’t want to work this out then I can’t change that. If you can’t help me and don’t want to because you hate me and are so pissed at me then ok I guess, nothing I can do about. 
All I have asked from you from the start Tim is for honesty and yet you could never give me that. Why? All you have told me is you don’t want a relationship, you aren’t looking for a relationship yet a day later I hear that you and DD are trying a long distance relationship. I am sure that all happened back in November right around your father’s death. I will never understand why you could never be honest and up front with me about your feelings regarding DD. I have given you my opinion just as you gave me yours about Jay. I respected them and I listened to you. Right now all I can do is wish you the best.
My door is still open for you and for your kids tim… You know where I live, you know where I work. If you ever need anything I am still here Tim. I can’t and I won’t turn my back on you no matter how much you hate me and abbie.
I know you don’t think about things, the past is the past but you really need to think about is this really how you want to end things tim? If you want to say good bye then can we please do it peacefully with a hug and kiss. I can’t keep you here and I can’t change your mind either. That is all up to you and up to your heart
Love always and forever,
Lisa

it will probably due no good but here is what I sent