been a long time

so i needed somewhere to vent and here I am… I haven’t posted anything since 09… WOW that is a long time…

I met this guy a 1 1/2 years ago, he sent me an email from zoosk.  It took me almost 10 days to email this guy back.   why you might ask, because he has 6 kids and was going through a divorce.  I choose to email him back and we meet with all the kids at the park one night because he was having a rough night week with all his kids.  Come to find out his wife of almost 10 years picked up and left him and the 6 kids to join the circus and to be with some guy.  Our 1st night out she calls him, he excuses himself from dinner and starts fighting with her.  Well she is on her way back to the state of az and wants to see him and the kids. 

The next day she shows up, he calls the cops well since the divorce wasn’t finale nothing he could do about.  I took there daughter and we went and did some shopping because she didn’t want to see her mother.  This guy and I have been through so much in such a short time.  We aren’t even a couple yet we fight like we were.  He ended our friendship yesterday and won’t talk to me removed me from his fb page  I am having a really hard time with this because the friendship ended on bad terms and in hate.  I hate to say it but my heart is never gonna close because the book wasn’t ever closed, or was it?  I feel like I am such this awful person who he hates.  I bring up the past to much, I nag at him to much, I can’t drop things.  Am I being to hard on myself??  I need closure but i dont feel like I will ever get it.  He bought me-traded in a ring and I bought him a ring last aug for his bday.. I told him to take his ring off, he tried to give it back to me, I took my ring and threw it at him and I saw him tose it in his yard and he threw his ring at me.  I have no clue to where either ring is now

I know i need time to heal myself from all of this…….

I wish I would have walked away along time ago… He didnt want anymore nights over so i stopped stayin the night over there, he didnt want to have sex anymore so we didnt have sex, and he wanted our friendship over with.. I really dont think I will ever hear from him again.  On top of it, he was suppose to watch my daughter in 2 weeks cause my mom is having surgery and now because of all of this I can’t be with my mom because I have no one to watch my daughter!!!!  HE DOESNT CARE!!!!

Why are people so mean and so hateful and why is society such a me me me world?