Dream Analyzed

Well after much thought today I think I analyzed the dream I had this morning. the first part of the dream I had involved being kicked out of my seat at a CFL game. I think this means that I feel like I am not in control of my life, I am allowing people to sway my way of thinking. The part about my friend and me sitting at the picnic table and he was higher than me. I think this is telling me that I see him as being better than me, like he is some sort of saint. The feeling of being uncomfortable and wanting a change tells me that I need to change the type of relationship I have with him. I want to be his equal, not someone he looks down at. Now the thing about him sleeping at my parents house and me having to have a shower before getting close to him. This is telling me that I think I am "dirty" in a sense and I need to be cleansed in order to be near him. I need to maybe deal with my issues in life before I can get into bed with him…lol…I think I realized that my relationship with him, I want to be with him, but I need to deal with the skeletons in my closet first. I guess I have a total fear that he will not want to be with me. That maybe I am not what he wants. Or if I am, he sure doesn’t say. I am confused when it comes to him emotions since I can’t read him. Its hard when I am thousands of miles away from him. But I would change that in an instant if he wanted me to come be with him. He just has to tell me what he feels and that he would like us to try and I would move there ASAP. ….