Sarah’s eye contact and moving out

 Well I have been busy. I moved out. Yesterday. Because the couple I was staying with, Rob and Elisiha, had their friend Tina over. Tina is a social worker. I made the stupid mistake of mentioning to her that I was concerned with Sarah’s lack of eye contact.

Sarah DOES make eye contact she just doesn’t hold it very long and it’s always been a concern for me. However Tina "suddenly noticed it too".  So there she was cooing and holding sarah and ringing bells in her face and shaking her head with this concerned look on her face. The next day I get this phone call about how Sarah is "disconnected from me as her mother" and "she is going to grow up with personality disorders" and how it’s "my fault as I don’t spend enough one on one time with her."

Naturally I am furious. However I thank her for her concern and inform her that I have made a dr’s appointment for sarah to make sure she is ok. I wanted to tell her to go F**** herself but I am so afraid of social workers and what if she was recording me?

So I told Rob and E I was moving out. I asked them if they had known Tina was going to call me. They said no, she called them afterwards and told them, blah blah blah, this wasn’t their fault, that Tina was just a concerned friend and to take it as such. I glared at them and said "of COURSE I am threatened, I am her MOTHER, if this were flipped, YOU would feel threatened."

Rob agreed that I had a point.

So i left.

Staying with my friend Char until Monday, because thanks to my dear friend Cassy  I have an apartment on Monday! Thank God. I need to be alone with Sarah, not staying with people and always worrying about leaving things lying around, or my child waking up theirs. I can RELAX!!!

Anyways I have more to write but I am SO tired and would like to do exactly that (relax).

Oh Sarah I love you so much why do people make things so hard?