To be desired.

April 24, 2020 – 12:08 A.M.

7 years ago I was working at a video rental place. Side shave growing out, hair unintentionally very dark. Coworkers I loved. In my hometown. Getting over my worst and dumbest breakup ever. And the point I’m trying to make is, I remember even back then how I was yearning for someone to appreciate me. Appreciate my body. My lips. Want to kiss me. Hold me. Basically to be desired. And taken seriously.

I’m still yearning for that all this time later. To not feel unwanted. Or unattractive. Overlooked. Or even not pitied. I’m sure most of it’s just in my head. I just want someone who can’t get enough of me. Cause deep down I do believe I’m deserving. And I  believe someone could really love my love and body and lips if they gave me the chance. Hopefully that someone is looking for me too.