The weekend is here..Still on the right track.

So the weekend is officially here. However, I won’t be getting any break this weekend as my hubby has to drive to Vancouver to pick some friends up from the airport and he is taking our van to do it so I will also be without transportation. Looks like I get to put in some hours walking which I guess is an added bonus, although more work with two kids. Oh well, it helps me to achieve my new goal of getting out and active EVERY day. I hate staying in and being lazy.

Anyways, I am still feeling good about myself. Still controlling my night binges, although last night I let myself go for it and ate a lot. It was like Puffed Wheat cereal, whole wheat toast, cream of wheat. Man, no wonder I had an upset stomach all day today. I was extremely bloated and in fact when I pushed my tummy out I looked so prego. My stomach was like rock hard too. But man, do I ever miss being skinny. This normal healthy weight thing sure doesn’t feel as great. I mean, don’t get me wrong, I am way way way happier and am able to do way more than when I starved and also am able to give my kids more of me. But I do miss that feeling when I was skinny. It gave me so much and I guess I still haven’t totally replaced it yet but I will get there. I know I will. I have too much at stake to go back in the other direction. Besides, I only get to live once. I only get to be a stay at home mom to two young kids once. Once that part of my life is over, I can never do it again and I don’t want to miss out on that. Because I am smart enough to know that one day I will look back at my life and I hope I don’t look back with regret.

I am still on track with my Wii fit. I only missed exercising one day on it and that was cuz I was puking and sick. I did however manage to still check in on it and weigh myself. SURPRISE SURPRISE. Only someone with an ED would think that is a priority when ur sick. LOL! HMMM….

Oh and the weather here feels like spring. I cannot even believe it. My mood is better just cuz I have that spring feeling. It’s so crazy. We like had no winter. I have been getting out though for longer now that the weather is warming up. I usually take the kids out for a walk and Amira rides her bike and we have a pretty good time.

I wanted to ask you all a question. Is there anybody else on here who gets severe cravings at night to like just eat the world? It seems no matter whether I restrict or not during the day, when night comes I still have this intense urge to just eat eat and eat. Once I start eating I am like in a trance. I hate it. So everynight I have to battle with my mind constantly so I don’t end up binging. But I don’t want to have to think about that all the time. Any tips??????????? Anyways, hope all is well with everyone….Will check in soon.