Look Into Your Heart

Welp, I still don’t have my stuff back, but they know who did it, which is a start. They have yet to get ahold of him, so I figure at this point, I’ll go in there tomorrow between classes, get all his info, and go down to the police station to file a report. Nothing has been taken out of my debit account, not sure about my plasma account. I need it back, well, anyway, but especially soon since rent and my last school payment for the term is due very soon. It’d be a lot easier to just have him bring it back to the plasma center, but I doubt that will happen. Sounds like he won’t be able to donate until he brings it back, and then he’ll be permanently rejected regardless, but it might pay off to be more direct. I haven’t cancelled my cards yet, I should really get on that.

I at least found my spare bike key, so I have transportation again. I had to walk to work this morning though, left at 415 and got at work around 535, that’s a lot of walking. At least it was warm out, and I wrote a song on the way there, something I can’t really do on a bike. And one of my friends was kind enough to borrow a book from the library for me so I could do my Spanish homework.

Oh yeah. So Tuesday I went to sushi with the Spanish chick. Seemed like it went really well, we talked the whole time. I sense trepidation, mostly just because she’s not a very outspoken person. It’s hard to say if she’s interested or not. She still doesn’t really respond to texts, but will occasionally text me on her own. I also added her on Facebook. I don’t get it. I’ll see if she wants to hang out tomorrow, maybe that will help me to gauge things. There was no class Thursday, so it’ll have been a week. Won’t have any money for coffee or food or whatever, but I wonder if that would make it easier, she’s definitely one of those people that feels bad about having someone else pay for lunch, so maybe just hanging out would make her more comfortable. In conclusion…I have no idea. I at least want to keep in touch with her as a friend, though. She got brownie points for listing some close-to-my-heart video games during our discussions. I’m not one of those nerds that expects an interest to like video games(or whatever other hobby), but it is a bonus, I suppose tolerance of said hobbies is all that’s required. I’d actually prefer someone that is kind of into games, but not really, that’s pretty much where I’m at. I guess I have been getting kind of addicted to League of Legends lately…usually I only play video games if I’m really unproductive or bored, I’d much rather be doing other things. I’m hoping I will get a lot of content for my site made during Winter Break, and not spend it all glued to the couch and/or computer.

Hmm, guess I’m going to see Immortals tomorrow with Jessa, cute friend of Skyler’s that has been over a couple times. I expect nothing, but she is cute, and Sky was I think encouraging me to pursue her. We’ll see.

I spent a couple hours talking with and listening to Jessie, said book-lending friend who recently was dating my roommate Scott before it ended quickly and lamely. It’s always interesting to hear both sides of an issue, they’re always way different. I’m good at being impartial, at least posthumously. I suppose I do seem to take a side after hearing one party’s tragedies, and then I end up split after hearing the rest. I’m not getting involved in this one, even if Scott getting back with his ex is the inevitable and super wrong conclusion. You can’t teach a lesson to someone, they have to learn it. It’s easy to go back to what you know, or who you know; it’s a comfort zone. Probably not a great place, if it were then you would have never left it. It’s relatively constant, you know what to expect. Taking a chance with someone or something new is a much bigger risk, but the reward is also potentially much, much bigger. My seemingly neverending streak of loneliness, while probably needing to die a quick, painful death, is slowly seeming more and more of a boon to me. I have no past, in the relationship sense. There’s no one to run back to. I can retreat into myself, but everyone has that option. Anyone I find will be new. And I believe new is the way to go. We’re all going to die, there’s no doubt about that. Why not see as much of the world as we can? Why not meet lots of new people? If not that, at least why not take a chance on something new instead of being unhappy kicking it in the same lame places with the same lame-ass people? I’ve given up on convincing friends in horrible, neverending relationships to take a chance on something, anything new, but it’s a lesson I am happy to utilize in my own life. I may be alone for the rest of my life, or I may not, but either way I refuse to settle.