So…this is it?

Today was the last day of school…but it still doesn’t feel like it, is that normal? It was raining when I left school today which I feel was appropriate. Except I kind of wanted to just stand there and look at the school for a while, but I was wearing a short dress and it was a little chilly…so I didn’t. I really thought I would cry, but I haven’t. Maybe at graduation I will? MAYBE I’M HEARTLESS? I’m really hungry. I don’t know why I’m not more sad. I guess its because I’m not going anywhere…which kind of makes me feel like I’m not doing anything with my life. Everyone is going off to college, and I decided I wanted to save up for college and just wait a year. So, I feel like I’m just gonna be a nothing. And my junior friends are going to be having their senior year and I feel sad that I won’t be there to share it with them. There gonna have all these great things going on…and I’m gonna be working at Bakers. No. I refuse. I will be working somewhere, but NOT at Bakers. I just need a really good job, with really good pay, like a full time normal job. I want a normal schedule, not one I have to go look at every week cause I have such obscure hours.