Wake Up Call

I lost my job last week. We agreed that I wasn’t needed for the business, so the boss said he’d pay me for the completed marketing plan and if more work comes up in the future he’ll let me know. I don’t even want him to let me know.

I failed that class I was worried I had failed.

I’ve begun to realize that I can do pretty much anything I set my mind to, and it’s about time I set my mind to something that’s going to take me to somewhere stable, even if the path there isn’t stable. I could go back to school full-time on a student loan, and get a degree while I finish up my certificate. I could get a full-time job. I could go travel and take some tme off, on a loan. I could move to Europe and pursue getting my citizenship. I could move to Toronto and get into marketing full-time and corporate. I could beef up my domme work and focus on getting professional at that.

Because I’m neither employed nor in school I’ve decided to take this week to think about where I’m at, and I’ve set up some time with people I’m close to in order to run my thoughts by them. I’m actually making time to listen to people I normally wouldn’t listen to – like my mom, or my old roommate, or older friends. I’m listening with an open mind and taking comments into consideration.

I feel directionless. I could go anywhere. Pursue any field of work or study. Be anything I want to be or do anything I want to do. But where do I want to end up? What do I want to gain?