Mini Breakdown
Last night I went home “sick” from the club after I’d been there for 2 and a half hours and hadn’t made any money. At first I was debating whether or not I should go, but when I got on the phone and started talking to my ex and ended up breaking down in tears I decided it would probably be better for everyone if I just got the fuck out of there.
I fucking hate this feeling of not knowing how much money I’m going home with, and I especially hate the feeling that I may walk out with nothing or just not enough for the bills I need to pay. And now that I went home last night the pressure is on for tonight and tomorrow night to make my rent money. And people wonder why strippers can seem desperate…
All I want is to be self-employed and successful enough that I’m not desperate to pay my bills. The company I’m starting up is starting to take off a bit… Well, it’s hovering, at the very least, which is a start.
I’m so tired of it all. I need a vacation. I need a break to recharge my batteries, but I can’t fucking afford it.
your a stripper now? damn iv missed loads. xx
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HI JUST WANTED TO SAY HI AND HOPE YOU DO BETTER.JUST STARTED A DIARY AND LOOKING FOR FRIENDS.
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Damn I hope you can get the money for rent. You’re strong though and you work hard, so I believe in you. 🙂 I wish we could buy time. lol
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wow your job takes so much confidence, i’m strangly envious…….. i hope you get to recharge your batteries some way. i always say if work is making you miserable.. it’s just not worth it anymore… no matter what the money is like, put yourself first. edi xxx
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ryn: it’s so good! I mean it’s really action packed and Keira knightley is hot. that’s interesting they toned that down, because she acts so queer in the movie. but you never see her with a woman. and in the end it shows the real Domino and I got the impression from her that she was queer, so that’s interesting. but yeah, go see it. 🙂
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Hang in there, love. Things will get better.
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