08/26/2012

it’s been such an incredible weekend.

i’ve been heavily considering moving. i wasn’t quite ready to bring it up to my mom, who is always my top advocate for everything. last week, my mom said she had a new idea for me about school. i joked with alan that maybe my mom would tell me to move back to colorado, establish my residency, and finish school at csu on the cheap. we laughed it off. imagine my surprise when my mom told me thursday on the way to lubbock that she thinks i should do exactly that.

i was shocked and grateful. i’m moving, guys! not just anywhere, either. to the place that i’m happiest. i’ll be in colorado january 2013.

almost immediately, my body relaxed. i stopped picking and biting my fingers, my weight dropped back to normal and, i know this is tmi, but i finally pooped normally! i feel like a brand new person right now.

the weekend with my brother was better than expected, too. brad and blakely were as warm as they could possibly be (they’re not typically warm…at all). we checked out my brother’s lab. brad works with stem cells. he’s the only one in west texas working with stem cells and he’s basically designed a set of experiments to work with stem cells and proteins and all that. it’s pretty cool. i had a lot of bonding time. vacation, no matter where you go, is always a good thing.

i was so stressed. i can’t emphasize enough how badly i needed to bounce ideas off my mom, to have some sort of plan about my future.

i feel like i’m about to explode right now. so so soooooooooooo good. beyond good.