09/07/2011 — edit

i’m in a pickle.

so i finally have all the pieces i’ve wanted for a long time, right? a best friend, a boyfriend, school, my own place. here’s the problem. megan is smothering me. for the last few weeks she’s been calling me several times a day, texting constantly, and she wants to be at my apartment in SA as soon as i’m back in town. don’t get me wrong — i love this girl. she’s the shit. but i need my space.

how do i tell her?

it’s not even that i mind hanging out with eric and megan at the same time because i don’t. the three of us have such a good time together, but i’d like to spend some time with just eric. more importantly, i’d like to spend some time alone. just me. it’s hard to go from spending a large portion of time alone to having all of these people to share time with.

take friday, for example. i got into SA around 12:30. megan wanted to know as soon as i got into town but i told her i wouldn’t be in until around 3. i wanted to chill out for a bit alone and get some laundry done at my dad’s. 3 rolls around and she’s blowing up my phone wondering when she can come over.

not cool.

i don’t want to lie to her about when i’m in town. i’ve never been on this side of the scenario and it sucks to be in megan’s position. it’s how i lived out high school. it was horrible. it sounds easy — just tell her, right? but how? i don’t want to hurt her feelings and i think she’s the type to pull back completely when you tell her something like this.

advice please.

edit —

okay, so megan just texted me asking me to ask eric if he was going to salud tonight. this is weird to me. am i overreacting? it’s not that i don’t trust them. i guess i would never hang out with megan’s boyfriend (if she had one) without her there, even if i had known him prior. i suppose it’s a little different if they knew eachother before we started dating…but they didn’t. it’s over stepping a boundary for me. one more thing to talk about…but now i’m feeling a little bit more pissed.

greeeeaaaat.