08/01/2011

i’m packing. i figured out my classes. i met my roommate. i’m almost all set.

i’m stressed about finding a job and my money situation, but i’m to blame for that one. it’s hard to look for a job right now considering i’m going to be out of town for almost two weeks, so i guess i’ll deal with that while i’m in missouri and when i get home.

i’m basically retaking all of my core classes (thanks texas!) because texans think we should educate differently. i have to take not only a government class but a TEXAS government class. are you kidding? i don’t know if y’all (haha) know this, but in seventh grade we’re required to take texas history. an entire YEAR on texas history. also, if you didn’t know, texas refused to sign the almost nation wide agreement to regulate educaton.

way to go, texas.

i’ve recently refused to read the news. i finally read today and it’s overwhelmingly negative. it scared the shit out of me. it’s not that i’m obvlious to what is going on with the debt ceiling and tea partiers…i’d just rather not face the demise of everything right now.

i like my roommate. she’s a little conservative, a little reserved, and she doesn’t drink…but that’s okay. i guess i’d rather have someone more tame than me. who knows what i could’ve ended up with.

i haven’t spoken to my dad in a week, since the heath thing. i know i can’t hold him to it — he has faults and he loves me and he doesn’t know how to deal with it — but yeah, i still wish he believed me.

in the last few days there’s been a freak out about cameron’s ex, a "i can’t wait to kiss every inch of your body" text from cameron, a "i know as soon as i see you i won’t be able to take my hands off of you" text, also from cameron and i’m reminded instantly why i’m so drawn to him. no games, just good stuff.

i’m having people over thursday and i’m making greek food and we’re making togas for friday’s pub run. i’m WAY stoked.

i didn’t run tonight and i’m feeling guilty. i’ll do crunches and pushups and tricep dips and maybe feel better.

last night was dinner at chris’ and it was SO nice. we’re having a guacamole challenge wednesday (i’m going to kick some serious ass) and again, i was reminded how wonderful it is to spend time with…family?

so much to be thankful for. better believe i’m counting my blessings over here as shit starts to pile up and i’m on the verge serious stress. 🙂

but seriously, i absolutely cannot wait to see cameron.