Phases

Over the past few days I have read each and every entry of this diary and I was shocked at what I found. I found the desperate pleas of my 17 year old self trying to hold onto those dear to her. I found my 18 year old self trying to find herself in a new environment. I found my 19 year old self dwelling over the past and worrying about the future. I found my 20 year old self coming apart at the seams. I found my 21 year old self rebelling against everything. I found my 22 year old self heartbroken and terrifed of her own feelings. I found my 23 year old self finding stable ground in her life. I found my 24 year old self reinventing her world.

Sometimes I do worry that my current situation is another phase. I can see from the transitions I’ve made that I have grown up over the past 8 years. I’ve matured in many ways and found happiness and peace. Things seem great and my future looks bright, so all I can do is enjoy the present, love Bobby with all my heart, and trust that God will provide for me in the end.