03/25/2013

Ohhhh! It’s been a wonderful week!

First, I don’t know what it is that’s finally clicked between Andy and I, but we seem to be over whatever massive hesitation we were experiencing at first. It’s amazing. It’s so amazing.

Actually, I think I do know. For my part anyway. I can’t remember right this moment if I actually posted an entry about how much I thought about our relationship while he was on vacation, but I did do a lot of thinking about it and was able to identify a lot of the fears and worries I had that had cropped up unexpectedly from experience in my previous relationship. This is regarding the way I had expected my relationship with Andy to be from the beginning, then the extreme anxiety I had because it wasn’t that way, then going through the forced understanding that he’s not the same person at all as Scott, which then led me to look at the internal problems, and thus solve for myself the inconsistencies I was experiencing on my own.

I am so, so happy! Everything is falling together!

In other news, some other things to report are, first, my sister will be visiting for a weekend next month! She’s not bringing the kids which is sad on one had because most of the family down here haven’t met Braxton, the youngest yet, but at the same time it will be good for her to get away from them for a little while. She’s coming down by herself, so I’m hoping she’ll be able to relax for a bit. It will be soooo good to see her.

I already talked about my great grandmother’s birthday in May…. hmm…

Lisa posted an event on Facebook the other day because she really, really, really, wants to spend a weekend in Las Vegas. She wanted it to happen like, beginning of next month, but there are too many things happening for too many people that it makes April sort of an impossibility. I won’t have enough time off, Anthony won’t be able to go that month for some reason, Andy just got back from Las Vegas and is done with it for a while. I can’t go in May because I’ve already taken time off to go north that month, June would probably be okay, but not July because I’m taking off for Comic Con.

Also, I have no desire at all to go to Las Vegas. It holds no real interest at all for me. I HATE gambling, and I know most of the time we’d just all be drunk and making asses of ourselves. Not really my idea of taking time off for vacation. I don’t want to be drunk for an entire weekend. It hurts, and it’s draining, and it’s miserable at the end. I don’t know how Andy did it for THREE DAYS! I would have died.

But, I will go, because when I told Andy that I didn’t want to go he made the most pitiful sad face ever and it made me feel bad. I’ll just make a point to enjoy the lights and sights rather than the clubs and bars and casinos.

Le sigh. I’ll take lots of pictures at least. I’ve never been to Las Vegas before so there’s that. I least I can say I went.

I’d much rather go camping, or go to a national park or something. But that seems to not be a popular idea among many of my friends here. Too bad, really.

I have lost track of my train of thought about seven times since beginning this entry, so I’m going to end it here.