Mandatory New Year Entry

As far as the New Year holidays go, this was most definitely the best of the best ever. So many good experiences, so many good people, so many things to be thankful for, and so many great opportunities for the future.

First, you know what I realized? This was the first New Year that I’ve ever had someone say to me "You need to kiss me at midnight!"

Scott and I never did that sort of thing. I don’t remember ever sharing a kiss with him on midnight of January 1st. Almost seven years we were together and that never happened.

Five minutes before midnight we all gathered in the band room at Dustin and Lisa’s house. There were about twelve or fifteen of us, all standing in a circle with Andy’s lights going and a smoke machine, all holding our mandatory red cup of champagne. I was standing there thinking how glad I was that the New Year showed up with my being 100% sure I’m not pregnant, how great the last year has been, and how funny it was that my cousin has a thing for dressing in drag during these sorts of festive occasions.

It was loud, and there was music and everyone was excited and giddy like you always get on New Year’s eve. There were rainbows in the air from all the light and smoke. We were all more than a little drunk, but at that point where everything is right in the world and your worries are small and don’t matter.

My cousin started pointing at people and yelling,"WHAT ARE YOU THANKFUL FOR?!?" so we all went around and thought of things we were thankful for. Keep in mind he was wearing a mini skirt and a redheaded wig.

There are very few nights like this, like this, in my memory. Very few perfect instances that I can look back on and think, "This was a perfect moment. It’s one thing to be optimistic and to know that my life is all opportunity and all work for the betterment of myself. It’s quite another to have a situation fall together so easily without any work at all. Those moments are usually short lived, but tend to make the greatest impact on one’s long term mentality.

I have surrounded myself with a group of the best people I can imagine. I have put myself in situations where I am surrounded by valuable people who constantly tell me that I am also valuable to them. Every single one of them was there in that circle on New Year’s eve. Well, almost every one. Mike wasn’t there because he’s going to school across country, which is sad, but also good because he’s doing what he loves.

My heart was just so full. I am so, so lucky. The only thing that could have possibly made it better would have been to have Colin there. But, my understanding is that he’s got a new lady friend as of New Years as well!

There was one point that night where Andy started saying words. Compliments and thoughts on our relationship and how happy he was and the plans he’s already making for Valentine’s Day.  My heart nearly exploded. I had to go to the bathroom to do a victory dance.

Two years. Two years I held off saying anything to him! I don’t know what was wrong with me.

Best. New Year. Ever. And now I can’t wait for Valentine’s Day. It will be the first Valentine’s Day in three years that I actually anticipate in a positive light.

And on the Resolutions front, I honestly haven’t sat down to make any resolutions this year, but I guess if I really wanted to I could do so now….

The biggest resolution I want to make is just to tone up my body. I’ve lost all the weight I meant to lose, but I could still tone up and start eating healthier. I need to buckle down and accept that I need to start learning how to cook properly. I was going to drop my vegetarianism, but meat makes my stomach so upset now, even boneless, skinless chicken, that I just don’t want to deal with getting used to it again. It’s not worth it.

Second, do more art. Buy water colors. And pastel paper. Get myself on the New Myspace as an artist. Maybe start an Etsy account.

So yeah! I hope everyone had a wonderful New Year!