My Return From The Abyss…

I’m back.  I won’t go into too much detail about what’s been going on, except to say that I’ve been really down the past two weeks.  I don’t know why.  I guess it could be called depression.  Everything said or done, I took as a personal attack and I just sank lower and lower.  I missed two days of work.  But my head is a bit clearer now.

I found out last week my aunt has colon cancer.  She told me that she’s having about 12 inches removed, but luckily it’s in a place where they can reattach it all together so she won’t have to wear a bag.  She’s been very upbeat and positive throughout the whole ordeal.  She’s always been "the fun aunt".  She used to take me and my sisters out driving at night and we’d just go all over the place.  Just driving.  She’d play games with us, make us cookies all the time and give us a place to hang out when we were bored.  We haven’t seen her much since she and my uncle seperated.  We all miss her alot.

Joe was sent to California last week for work.  He and his team had to close down a factory out there and gather up the servers and send them back home.  Of course, he didn’t tell me of this until right before he was leaving.  I think my status has dropped from "Partner" to "Boyfriend"….though I have a sad suspision I may just be "roommate", seeing as how we don’t do much of the "boyfriend" things…..

On the plus side of things, an opportunity has come up for me to get a job back at HP with my friends.  I really hope I get it.  The pay would be better and it’s a lot closer to my home.  But experience has taught me that any time I truly desire something and have a strong wish to get it, I don’t.  So I’ve been trying not to dwell on it or think of it too much.  I really don’t want to jinx this.