Free Me From My Chains

well, once again God is dealing with me thru a reacurring theme. i guess its time i deal with some of my struggles and issues. he keeps throwing them in my face along with the solution and the promise of his love and forgiveness. so you would figure with Him doing all of this it woulf be easy and i would be all for it. but if you would be real, you kno its not that easy. today in chapel (Yes i said chapel. we have it twice a week at my school) a guy spoke on temptation and the solution to it. OMGosh… it was so powerful and he didnt hav to do anything special or fancy. but anyway, i just wanna ask that my tru friends pray for me as i attempt to deal with things head on.
Which leads to the real point of this blog. once again we can thank the annoited Kirk Franklin for inspiring me. firat a group of girls praised danced to one of his songs…
Free- by Kirk Franklin
I know the pain you feel inside
And the tears you try to hide
In your heart you ask God why
Can you help me, will you help me please
Take away the pain
Where’s the sun I feel the rain.
Then I hear your spirit say…That I am

(Chorus)
Free
Free to lift my hands
Free to say Amen
Free to know that someday I will smile again
I’m free
Free to laugh not cry
Free to live not die
I’m Free

I know you’re troubled by your past
And you hide behind your mask
The misery it seems to last
Through the night but it’s alright
Joy is just a prayer away
Don’t look back at yesterday
Then hear your spirit say
That I am

(Chorus)
Free
Free to lift my hands
Free to say Amen
Free to know that someday I will smile again
I’m free
Free to laugh not cry
Free to live not die
I’m Free

No more chains and loneliness
For Christ has set me free
For we are more than conquerors
Through his love now I can see
That I am

(Chorus)
Free
Free to lift my hands
Free to say Amen
Free to know that someday I will smile again
I’m free
Free to laugh not cry
Free to live not die
I’m Free

then he had my friend give me back my Fight of my life cd. which if you dont hav you need to go get. and as soon as i put the cd in, it went straight to the next to last song. very wierd, but its how God speaks to me sometimes. that song is chains…. OMGosh, i could cry. those words are…
Chains- by Kirk Franklin
Chains
That try to bind me
Chains
That won’t let me go
Oh Chains
They keep me from trying
Chains
Please loose your stronghold
Chains
Though I try to surrender
Chains
Yet still I remember
Whom the Son sets free
Is truly free indeed
Lord free me from these chains

Chains
And a heart full of sorrow
Chains
I won’t sleep well tonight because of these
Chains
How I long for tomorrow
Cause today
There are no tears left to cry
Chains
Though it feels cold as winter
Chains
I will fight to remember
That by your stripes
I’m healed
To your heart Lord I appeal
Please free me from these chains

Of abuse (Chains)
Of suicide (Chains)
Pain from my past (Chains)
That robbed my peace of mind (Chains)
Chains of divorce (Chains)
Addiction and fear (Oh Chains)
Being afraid to die (Chains)
And afraid to live (Chains)
Chains of depression (Chains)
Haven’t laughed in a while (Chains)
Restore my joy (Chains)
And give me back my smile (Ooh Chains)
I do love you Jesus (Chains)
But not like I should (Chains)
I love you father (Chains)
But not like I could (Chains)
Have mercy on me (Chains)
Can’t go on this way (Chains)
Save me I’m lost (Chains)
Help me believe what you say (Chains)
This is just a test (Chains)
Though it’s hard to see (Chains)
I surrender your will (Chains)
So now I ask you please
Free me from these
Oh please free me from these
Oh free me from these

I know you can
You said you will
Free me
Jesus
I know you can
Please if you will
Free me
Jesus
I believe you can
I believe you will
Free me
Jesus
So if you can
I pray you will
Free me
Jesus

Please Lord I’m begging you
Free me from
Oh free me from (from these)
Free me from these
Chains

so like i said i just wanna ask my real tru friends who took the time to read this blog to pray for me as God continues to work on me and as i go thru wat lies ahead. i love ya’ll and appreciate everyone one of you.