A nice day
We had pancakes this morning and watched cartoons, it was a good morning. ~s~ Luke and I are both exhausted though! We’ve been up late so many nights in a row, and I don’t think either of us has slept much since we started talking.
Mom wanted to go to Home Depot to get some things, so Luke and I went along. We got some stuff for the yard, priced arbors (which are way too expensive!) then while mom was looking at some other things, I dragged Luke over to the kitchen section and showed him the kitchen that I want, ya know, just in case! ~L~ Then I saw a red washer and dryer and whined about wanting those. Later when I showed them to mom she was saying that the red appliances were supposed to stay in the kitchen, though I don’t see why they can’t be in the laundry room too! Besides, it’ll be my laundry room, I can put what ever color of washer and dryer in there that I want!
When we got back from Home Depot, we watched an episode of Veronica Mars. Mom bought the first season at Costco, and we’re all ready hooked! It’s kinda funny how we don’t usually watch tv, but then we’ll buy a series and watch them all the time! Of course this way we only have to buy the seasons, rather than paying for cable that would keep us glued in front of the tv forever! And this way, we never miss anything!
Luke and I were falling asleep on the couch, mom went to do some other things, so he and I went into my room and took a nap on a proper bed! Yes, we actually did sleep! Well, until we woke up… ~s~ Mom had left for a while to run some errands, but of course she came back and had bad timing!
By the time we got up from our nap it was about 7pm, we actually slept for a pretty long time! We’d decided to go to the drive-in, so Luke and I went and got a pizza at Papa Murphy’s. We cooked the pizza and got all our other movie snacks together, Luke and I went together and mom took her own car and just parked next to us. It was pretty nice, better than us all going in one car for sure! We saw Blades of Glory, which was really funny, then Next with Nicholas Cage, it was pretty good too. After the movie, Luke decided to go home, rather than sleeping on the couch again. I didn’t want him to go, but I understood why he didn’t want to stay.
I went and laid down with mom after Luke left. I have to admit to being slightly freaked out. I think I’m developing a commitment phobia or something. There are so many ways that he reminds me of Jake, and I guess just the fact that Jake seemed so damned perfect at first, then everything went all wrong. And I know it’s not right to lump guys together, and everyone is different and blah blah blah, but I’m seriously having a panic attack! I mean I have such a great time with him, then all I can think about when he leaves is that I should end it now before everything goes wrong! Fuck, just give me a big shiney red panic button… I cried to mom about it, and she reminded me that dating was just that, and everything doesn’t have to be forever, and I should really just hang out with him and get to know him because he’s not Jake. I did feel better after talking to mom, and I really don’t want to be the jerk that dumps someone just becuase she’s afraid of getting hurt. That’s crazy. And more than that, I’m not going to keep letting what happened with Jake have such a big influence on me!