5/20/04

Hmm today, MCAS math, omgoodness, i hated, like all of the ppl higher than me in math, were like it’s soo easy… err i think i did so badly, o well what am i gonna do?? I am so tired i wanted to go to sleep during the last half…err

Each morning we have breakfast, well during MCAS, but i was sitting with my friends, someone was sitting to the left of me earlier but she left. I noticed Matt there like 2 table in front of me, he was sitting down but then i think more ppl came and he kind of got moved out. so about 10-15 minutes before the period ended, he came over. Befroe that he was at the table ahead of me all alone, i felt bad for him, yet i didn’t do anything, at least he did something.

Well anyway he sat down and we were talking and at my table was rebecca who doesn’t know matt, kelley who knows about him, and some other ppl.  anyway we talked for a little bit, then we held hands. 🙂 but no one else saw, which i wouldn’t have minded but i wouldn’t know what to tel them. “oh were just friends…” i don’t know. If rebecca really wants to know she’ll ask… aha right i bet not, at least kelley is my friend and won’t tell her anything….i know she won’t mind, but she’s the kind to.. i don’tn know how to explain o well.

I’ve noticed that ppl don’t really like matt, like for instance yesterday a ked in my math class was talking about girls in his math class and he was naming them, plus matt’s name. i’m like awww thats mean, but i couldnt’ say anything i’d be made fun of. And today in health some ppl were making fun of the way he dressed.  I know none of this should change anything but I’m afraid of what other ppl may think, if it goes anywhere. I’m pretty sure he likes me.. and i’m pretty sure i like him, that’s sad to think, pretty sure, but, i think when it’s like your first time, like this you can’t be sure.

I keep thinking if he really does like me, (as i keep going on and on.lol) *sigh*

well that’s good for now ttyl

Andrea