At least trying

I do see that Jays is trying to be better. I don’t expect the big change so suddenly, but I’m pleased that he’s at least trying to make me happy. I’m thankful enough. Now, I have to work on it, too. I need to be more patient and understanding. I also need to work on forgiving his side of family and his acts in the past that still put me on fire when I recollect the memories. I want to be more embracing person. I live once and life is too short to be angry and be hateful.

Jays is leaving on Saturday morning to California. He’s driving the car. He bought the plain ticket to return on the 12. My mom will take Joshua to school for next week. I asked Jays to pick up something from L.A to give to my mom and also for my dad’s birthday next Saturday. The nights without Jays at home will be weird and scary. I wish I could go with him to see the shopping plaza area where he’ll reserve the spot and the apartments we are interested to live at.

Jays came home early today to get ready to leave. He took Joshua out with him to the bank and to clean out the car. We’re going to load up the car with things to take there first. I need to go to Once Upon a Time to sell some of the Joshua’s clothes and buy some shirts for Elizzabeth.

My parents are becoming more emotional about us moving. I feel bad. My dad is acting kind of clod and grumpy toward Jays at work, but I know that’s how he’s expressing himself and holding in about being sad. He had dreams making his business bigger and we all know that’ll be pretty difficult wihtout Jays being involved with it. My dad’s business is good enough I think. I’m sure he’ll be fine.

We succeeded giving Joshua a haircut while he was asleep. We attempted numerous times but failed. We had to wait until he’s very tired and snored to sleep. Jays put the towel under his head and did it. Jays is pretty professional about it now. I wonder how other parents deal with their kids with autism when it comes to giving haircuts. We know there are many boys have long hairs at Joshua’s school. Jays does my bangs, too. my hair passed my shoulder already.

I decided to get Joshua’s kindengarten vaccinations after a long hesitation. I really hope to take Joshua to the dentist, too, but I don’t know how we will be able to keep Joshua stay in the chair and if he would open his mouth for the dentist.