Still alive

Heya,

I havent been writing much.. I think it’s been a month since my last entry? I’ve just been so incredibly overwhelmed for the last couple of weeks. My last week at my old job was somewhat stressful since I was trying to finish as much as I could of the project before I left on Friday. The weekend was alright – I dont even remember what I did back then but all I know is that Monday was my first day at my full time job which was nice and easy.

Of course, the first week was easy.. but it’s been gradually building up in intensity and now I’m actually doing programming work. I dont know why I was so eager to start.. editing html is so.. easy and relaxing. haha. But brainless of course, or at least to me – I’ve been doing it over 6 years now.

Anyway, grad school started up again 2 weeks ago. So far so good. Only 2 assignments the whole semester for one class and a short weekly assignment for the other – so far. Once we start doing video and sound, I’m sure I’ll be uber stressed.

Weekends are so incredibly short now. I barely have time to get stuff done if I lounge around on Saturdays so now I barely sleep in and get up to do chores and go shopping for stuff I need.

Today, I’m hoping to *finally* clean my room once and for all. I knew it was in a horrible state when I almost fell in the middle of my room.. when there *shouldnt* be anything there to begin with… but the floor is so cluttered with crap that I can barely walk around in my own room! this is ridiculous.. so now you know why I havent written in here. I barely have time to do the bare essentials.

I now have to figure out a way to get more energetic after work and do stuff during the week so it doesnt pile up for the weekend. I’ve been trying to be productive during the week but apparently not enough.

I just HATE the feeling of not being caught up and constantly trying to make things right. First it was settling into work. Then settling into my class schedule. Now fixing up my room so I feel like a human being again. Bagh. So it is.. I just really need a day when I can honestly say, I dont need to do anything today. I think I’ll just relax.