Confused

I went to this pajama party yesterday. It was so much fun. There was a lot of racks hang out and a lot of thongs showing. I met some one there. But like me she was riding with someone. Karen was pretty nice looking. She’s bout 5’ 6” and 140 lbs, dark brown hair blue eyes and 38D’s. (I only talked to her because she reminded me of someone else, she didn’t look as good but the person she reminded me of has dark brown and blue.) I just LOVE blue eyes.  Because I refuse to drink and drive I could not close the deal. (I got a ride and she got a ride so no hotel or ever back seat of the car action, but I did get her number and some head).  I guess I need to find some females with their own car. (Or a least drive themselves to a party).  I’m not Don “magic” Wan but I have not had problems with picking up women. But for some reason there is this one person I think about a lot. I’m more the 10 years Older then her and there’s other reasons why we can’t be together. She is very smart and has her shit together. (She has a plan for what she wants to do with her life anyway and is working it out, I’m very proud of her for that).  Is there such thing as falling for more than one person?  I love the person I’m with now (Angie we have been married for 12 years and have an open marriage). We have been thru so much together and I can’t see a future without her. But this other person has me so interested. I want her so bad. I can’t say it is lust because we have never had sex. I just love talking to her, (Even if it’s just instant messenger and not even face to face or over the phone). First I guess I should ask her how she feels about me. I know at her age, I fucked anything with a pulse.  I guess there is some reason I met her. In my life time I have studied many different religions. But for the most part they all agree on that everything happens for a reason. I guess I just need to figure it out the reason I met her.

Life is a Bitch, then you marry one, then you DIE.