Giving Myself a Headache

This entry will have a few song references. This another time not being smart and taking my own advice. I went over to the ex ‘J’s house again. I was supposed to be helping her with financial aid papers so her daughter can go to college. We worked on that for a while (well I did anyway). I was sitting at the table with her laptop and she would not keep her hands to herself. Instead of just asking her will she “Touch It or Not (Cam’ron)” I ended up feeling her from the inside “Closer (Nine Inch Nails)”.  She moves her body like a “Cyclone (Baby Bash)”so there is little resistance when she is under the table give you a hummer. Part of the problem is “Me So Horny (2Live Crew)” She calls to find out what we are doing for Valentines Day. I told her nothing we are not seeing each other .Why can she have no memory and came to me a just a friend. “Comes as You Are (Nirvana)” She got upset with this of course. Back in the day around her I could not take a “Breath (Breaking Benjamin)”.  It’s not like that anymore. I just gotta tell her to “Breathe (Fabolous)”.  After I’m done with her taxes I just need to stay away from her and save myself the headache. What don’t kill me only will make me “Stronger (Kanye West)”.  I need to just get control of my life. Once again I feel like things are spiraling out of control. I’m just tired of everything. I wanna run away from everything. I am really contemplating just picking up and running from my life. Start up new somewhere else with an alias and become a whole new person, like witness protection. I’m sooooooo depressed. A least I have a friend to talk to. (Damn geography) Everything in life isn’t all bad. It just feels like it. Life is a Bitch, then you marry one, then you DIE.