More Depression

I am sooooooooooo fucking depressed. I am starting to really hate the christmas season. I feel so alone. I find myself not liking things I love to do. I like buying dvds. But I haven’t looked a Best Buy ad in weeks.

Got a bill in the mail from the police dept for cost for getting a DUI. Charges for breathalizer (spelling),for the cop that pulled me over, for the cop the booked me and a shit load of crap like that. To the tune of $300. The same night I got the DUI another cop pulled me over first and gave me a ticket for my tail light. Like a jackass I forgot about it. $145. Ain’t that a bitch for a $2.50 light bulb. I don’t have a money tree in my back yard. Can things get any worse.

Now I gotta start planning for Christmas dinner with a bunch of people I don’t really like. Also gotta start planning for the yearly New Years eve party. More money I don’t have. At least I can get blackout drunk and don’t have to drive anywhere. I want so bad just to drown my pain in a fifth of 1800 and be done.

I wanna run away from work, the kids, my wife, life. Calgon take me away. Or somebody do it. Put me out of my misery. Saprano’s style, 2 the back of the head.

Life is a bitch, then you marry one, then you die.