Holiday Depression

 I don’t know why I’m so depressed. The holiday season is suppose to bring good cheer. Nope not for me. I haven’t felt this bad in a while. Tommorrow is the big court date.

Damn I was stupid fuck for drinking and driving. My fault. At least I know and knowing is half the battle. Right ??? I hope it goes well.  I hope at least to be able to keep my lisences. I know I’ll have to go to AA meetings which as of late will be a good thing. Hopefully the judge does not throw the book at me. Lets hope for the best.

Well " A " wants to have a " talk " tonight when she gets home. She says she is close to a desision on something she has been going over. What could that be ? The way I’m feeling now she could tell me the world is ending tommorrow and I wouldn’t care. 

Life is a bitch, then you marry on, then you die.