Restart.

Changes are abound in the coming months.  For one, I’m going to save up for a digital piano with pet-sitting money.  And my own guitar.  In the meantime, I plan on buckling down on practicing guitar.  It’s being a bugger for me, for some reason.  And, I’m going to start carrying around a notepad so I can write things down.  Ideas, lyrics. 

Fear and anxiety just aren’t an excuse, anymore.  I’m giving this a go, and if it doesn’t pan out, that’s fine.  At least I’ll have explored an avenue instead of avoiding potential awesomeness.

And, now there’s someone pretty gorram cool who I think would be willing to give me feedback, down the road.  We’ll see.

This Wednesday, I’m seeing Jenny Lawson (aka the Bloggess) at a book signing in north Jersey.  The drive will be craptastic since it’s just outside of NYC, and it’s on a weekday, and I have my rotation the next day at 7am, but I think it’ll be worth it.  I wanted to read the book (which is "Let’s Pretend This Never Happened") by this weekend and actually had to order it from that bookstore in order to gain admittance, but it’s been a week, and no book in sight, even though I emailed them.  I think I’m just going to buy the book AGAIN tomorrow so I can read it in time.  Frustrating, especially since I technically have no money to spare as it is.  Anyway, my goals are to meet her, have the book autographed, and a picture.  To add to my growing collection of pictures of me with awesome people, ha.

Ridiculously, I’ve realized I completely forgot to make mention of the end results of the whole Run Team Kina fundraising thing (I didn’t, did I?).  With Tamara’s help, the total ended up being $610, which surpassed my goal!  Not only that, but all together, with all our fundraisers and Kina’s combined, we way surpassed the $50K goal at over $70K, so not only will a research grant be funded, but the extra $20K+ will go toward patient/community services.  Kina was beside herself, and it was just an incredibly awesome feeling to have been a part of it.  Also, I won a prize for being the top fundraiser during the last week of fundraising!  It’s an autographed frame from "Valentine", one of Kina’s music videos (pause at 2:32 🙂 ).  I’ve yet to do so, but I plan on framing it and hanging it up on a wall.  Because it’s a reminder that I did something awesome and meaningful and was inspired to do so by someone awesome.

I’m still stuck on Week 5 Day 2 of the C25K plan.  Arggh.  I’m hoping by next week, I can overcome this hurdle.  Now that it’s a monthish away from the Color Run, I’m going to up my training and make sure I do it every other day.  Right now, I’ve been slacking a bit and skipping 2 days in between on average.  I have absolutely no clue how I’ll be able to run a 5K by July 8th, but that won’t stop me from trying. Kina and her entire family just ran their half-marathon on Monday.  It was pretty awesome..

Honesty time:  I’ve been depressed for the past several weeks and pretty exhausted by my early rotations schedule (have to be up by 5:30am M-F).  It’s why I haven’t even sent out thank yous to my far-away donators, yet.  But, it’s coming.  I’m sorry, though.

I need to start taking better care of myself.  Zainab is doing the micro rotation now at the same hospital I’m at.  She told me I look tired, today.  I said, "I am tired".  Because I am…very, very tired.  But, I don’t think it’s just lack of enough sleep.  It’s various factors, and they need to change…and will, starting this weekend.

Time to put some more effort into things.